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Thursday, April 19, 2018

Two Musical Tracks That Can Change Your Life!

1. 'The Great Gig in The Sky' by Pink Floyd - This is so good that it might make you incompetent and keep you that way for hours. As if you're so awake and so sedated, so tranquil yet so vigorously energetic - all at the same time. The paranoia, the fierce energy and the lovely, absolutely out of the world vocals are all that goes into the literal composition of the song!



Clare Torry, the woman behind the orgasmic vocals featured in the track 



It indeed feels very cosmic at the core, almost as if someone is calling out your name in the course of resonance of frequencies. Prior to listening to this, I would never have known the wonders music can do to your body and your soul. There are perhaps two sides of the same story in every corner of the world, this brilliant composition could either leave you silent for hours and hours or could end up turning your world upside down in the matter of a moment in the course of a significant euphoria it immediately ensues. 

2. 'Usignolo' (Nightingale) by Yanni - If there is some meaning in the word 'alluring' and it truly adheres to realistic entities created on this planet, then 'Usignolo' is one of them. There is nothing I do not love about this track. The first time I tried to listen to it absolutely tranquil, lying on my bed, fervently lending a ear - I had a feeling that I was not competent enough to bear the raw beauty of the musical endeavour fused into melancholia in this track.




Lauren Jelencovich performing with Yanni and his orchestra

(Photograph Source: Wikipedia)

 It reminded me of Jodie Foster's fanatical 'They should have sent a poet..." in 'Contact' and of Kirsten Dunst's soul-haunting expression in Von Trier's 'Melancholia'. It reminded me of the Whirlpool galaxy and of ARP 194 and a cumination of Milky Ways merging together, coming closer. It sent waves down my spine, and I was staring in wild oblivion at every other object around me. This one has been on loop on my playlist ever since then! 
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Monday, April 9, 2018

The Story of Dicey Reilly : The Woman Who Walked Along Fitzgibbon Street with an Independent Air

The story of Dicey Reilly would be significant enough for two reasons; first, that it is a story far more than a song ( who knows if a story is always a song, in the end? ) and second, it is a beautiful Irish story/song. 
Everything that I hear about the Irish culture leaves me dwelling with a memory that I never consciously acquired in this lifetime. And I am being the most truthful I possibly can be. This song, in particular, is savagely feministing in a sea of patriarchal waves and the approach is so evidently socio-cultural, that you just can't deny what it says deep within. 
Moreover, the introduction that Ronnie Drew provides at the beginning of the song is a challenge to institutional advocacy in music in one of the most easygoing methods one has ever had a chance to perceive. 





Dicey Reilly Lyrics
Source: Genius

Oh poor old Dicey Reilly she has taken to the sup
Oh poor old Dicey Reilly she will never give it up
For it's off each morning to the pop
And then she's in for another little drop
For the heart of the rowl is Dicey Reilly

Oh she walks along Fitzgibbon street with an independent air
And then it's down Summerhill and as the people stare
She says it's nearly half past one, and it's time I had another little one
Ah the heart of the rowl is Dicey Reilly

Long years ago when men were men and fancied May Oblong
Or lovely Beckie Cooper or Maggie's Mary Wong
One woman put them all to shame, just one was worthy of the name
And the name of the dame was Dicey Reilly

Oh but time went catching up on her like many pretty whores
And it's after you along the street before you're out the door
The balance weighed and they look all fade, but out of all that great brigade
Still the heart of the rowl is Dicey Reilly


The song belongs to more of a spoken-word genre, with hardly any significant melody you can boast about and the semi-argumentative approach in the lyrics leaves you wuthering from one place to the other before you have a chance to gather what's going on.

The structure of the song is not one of the symmetrical, pretty pieces you see stacked on the shelves of modern music record labels but is highly unpolished, abrased in a way you're supposed to enjoy - very much like the effect of whiskey in Irish coffee. 


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Sunday, April 8, 2018

10 Breathtaking Images of Galaxies Spread Across the Space: Your Astral Thirst Quenched for the Weekends


Photograph Source: Daily Mail

The nearest galaxy to the Milky Way, Andromeda (also known as Messier) has been named after the mythological character Princess Andromeda. The Milky Way and Andromeda galaxies are expected to collide in ~4.5 billion years, merging to form a giant elliptical galaxy or a large disc galaxy. With an apparent magnitude of 3.4, the Andromeda Galaxy is among the brightest of the Messier objects - making it visible to the naked eye on moonless nights, even when viewed from areas with moderate light pollution.



Photograph Source: Daily Mail

The Whirlpool Galaxy, also known as Messier 51a - and its companion are easily observed by amateur astronomers, and the two galaxies may be seen with binoculars.
A black hole, surrounded by a ring of dust, is thought to exist at the heart of the spiral. The dust ring stands almost perpendicular to the relatively flat spiral nebula. A secondary ring crosses the primary ring on a different axis, a phenomenon that is contrary to expectations. A pair of ionization cones extend from the axis of the main dust ring.


Photograph Source: Daily Mail

The Eagle Nebula (catalogued as Messier 16 or M16, and as NGC 6611, and also known as the Star Queen Nebula and The Spire) is a young open cluster of stars in the constellation Serpens.
 Both the "Eagle" and the "Star Queen" refer to visual impressions of the dark silhouette near the center of the nebula, an area made famous as the "Pillars of Creation" photographed by the Hubble Space Telescope. The nebula contains several active star-forming gas and dust regions, including the Pillars of Creation.


Photograph Source: Popular Science 

Arp 273 is a pair of interacting galaxies, lying 300 million light-years away in the constellation Andromeda. It was first described in the Atlas of Peculiar Galaxies, compiled by Halton Arp in 1966. The larger of the spiral galaxies, known as UGC 1810, is about five times more massive than the smaller galaxy.It has a disc that is tidally distorted into a rose-like shape by the gravitational pull of the companion galaxy below it, known as UGC 1813. The smaller galaxy shows distinct signs of active star formation at its nucleus, and "it is thought that the smaller galaxy has actually passed through the larger one."


Photograph Source: Popular Science 

This striking NASA/ESA Hubble Space Telescope image captures the galaxy UGC 477, located just over 110 million light-years away in the constellation of Pisces (The Fish).

UGC 477 is a low surface brightness (LSB) galaxy. First proposed in 1976 by Mike Disney, the existence of LSB galaxies was confirmed only in 1986 with the discovery of Malin 1. LSB galaxies like UGC 477 are more diffusely distributed than galaxies such as Andromeda and the Milky Way. With surface brightnesses up to 250 times fainter than the night sky, these galaxies can be incredibly difficult to detect.

Most of the matter present in LSB galaxies is in the form of hydrogen gas, rather than stars. Unlike the bulges of normal spiral galaxies, the centers of LSB galaxies do not contain large numbers of stars. Astronomers suspect that this is because LSB galaxies are mainly found in regions devoid of other galaxies, and have therefore experienced fewer galactic interactions and mergers capable of triggering high rates of star formation.

LSB galaxies such as UGC 477 instead appear to be dominated by dark matter, making them excellent objects to study to further our understanding of this elusive substance. However, due to an underrepresentation in galactic surveys — caused by their characteristic low brightness — their importance has only been realized relatively recently.

Text credit: European Space Agency
Image credit: ESA/Hubble & NASA, Acknowledgement: Judy Schmidt




A long Chandra exposure of M87 has revealed a shock wave in high-energy X-rays as well as evidence for a series of outbursts from the central supermassive black hole. The image shows a series of loops and bubbles in the hot, X-ray emitting gas. These are relics of small outbursts from close to the black hole. Other remarkable features are seen in M87 for the first time including narrow filaments of X-ray emission, which may be due to hot gas trapped to magnetic fields. One of these filaments is over 100,000 light years long, and extends below and to the right of the center of M87 in almost a straight line.

(Credit: NASA/CXC/CfA/W.Forman et al.)
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Saturday, March 31, 2018

Maati ki Gudiya : A Beautiful Song by Rashmeet Kaur - A Stand Against Child Marriage in India

For years now, as the Bollywood industry has been growing, the focus has been intricately laid on thrilling, masala songs rather than some real music. As a result, Indie musicians - or those who wanted to experiment with contemporary styles have always been exempted from the arena of mainstream focus. Only recently have we seen a drastic change in how the scenario for musicians from different genres have been taking over the industry. Globalisation does have some boons attached to itself, then.



'Maati Ki Gudiya' literally means 'terracotta doll'. The rhetoric in the title directly infuses into the understanding of the listener an earthly feeling coupled with a tingling sensation of fragileness - as if something is about to be hurt, as if those who deserve the glory would soon be bereft of their share of it. That is what the song is exactly about. It talks about the discrimination that persists in India regarding the child marriage issue. An estimated 27% of women are married before they are even 18 years old!

The touching lyrics of the song, coupled with Rashmeet's substantial musical (and aesthetic) appeal makes this performance an utter delight to both the eyes and ears. Priyanka's (cast as Gudiya) gullible and bright smile is a visual treat, too. 

Rashmeet's voice has got a sultry touch, and is equally earthly and convincingly sweet at the same time. Her involvement with the ambiance of the concept and the stunning videography
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Monday, March 26, 2018

Feminism : The History of Origins ~ Guest Article by Alyssa Johnson

Feminism: The History of Origins 

Feminism, this world is used a lot these days. With many self-proclaimed feminist such as Beyoncé Knowles and Hillary Clinton, it is obvious why this world is becoming more popular. On the other hand, gender is an important part of society regardless of different views. For example, a study conducted in the UK showed that up to 64% of the population felt that gender equality is important. But what is the actual meaning of feminism and where did it come from?


 What is Feminism?

Feminism is not only a political movement but also a social, economic and cultural activity
movement whose sole purpose is to empower women and ensure gender equality in all spheres
of life. Moreover, the west has played a huge role in promoting women rights.
So, how did feminism come to be? Well, there have been many movements over the years that
supported women’s rights and advocated for equality between all sexes. However, many of
these movements have differed in several aspects such as goal and cause.
Because of this, it becomes a bit difficult to trace the actual origins of feminism. Some historians
believe that feminism should be only applied to modern feminist movements. Therefore, to get a
better understanding of the history of feminism, it is important to understand some of the earliest
events in history that lead to the need for movements empowering women.



Throughout history many societies considered women as second-class citizens, in fact, many
parts of the world still believe that women are not equal to men. Women were not allowed to do
the same activities as men. For example, they were not allowed to own property or work in
certain jobs. Over time women saw the need to address these issues and fight for equality:

1. 18th century

The 18th century also known as the period of enlightenment, saw the likes of Jeremy Bentham
and Marques Condorcet ask for equality between men and women. At the time women were not
allowed to vote or take part in public decision making. These men saw it necessary for women
to partake in these matters.

2. 19th Century

Feminist ideas became in trend during this century. Many female writers including Jane Austen
expressed the inequalities between men and women, with such books acting as a voice for the
need for equal treatment of women. Another area of focus for women’s rights in the 19th century
was the need for equal educational and working opportunities for women.


3. First-wave feminism

First-wave feminism was centered around getting women political power. Feminists in this
period thought that if women could get political power, it would give them the means to change
certain issues such as the right to vote.
Between the 19th and 20th century there were several accomplishments including electoral
reform, social reform, and reproductive rights. The great wars of the 20th century also
contributed to first-wave feminism in that women could go to front lines.
Because most men were on the front line, it left a vacancy in industries which was filled by

women. It is during this period that the icon of Rosie the Riveter came to life.



4. Second-wave feminism

Identified as the period between 1960 to 1980, the second wave sought to link political and
cultural inequalities. The main issues that were addressed in this period include:
● Sexuality,
● Family life,
● Reproductive rights,
● Work-related issues.

During the second-wave, there were other movements for equality such as the Civil right and
Gay and Lesbian movements. One interesting fact is that many women participated in all these
movements. Female writers expressed more political and sexual issues. Prominent women
during this period included Gloria Steinem.
The 1975 United Nations conference on International Women’s Year set the foundation of the
International Women’s Day, celebrated on the 8th of March every year. The main aim of this
conference was to promote women’s rights worldwide.

5. Third-wave feminism

The third-wave feminism is considered to have started from the 1990s till today. Today there are
many groups of feminists with others being considered as radical feminists. Even though the
term feminism is more acceptable now, some people still feel threatened by this notion. Today
women are aiming for equal pay, gender-based violence, and women’s reproductive rights. If
you want to know more or complete marketing essay writing task, you can get a high-quality
help online.

Conclusion

Although feminism has been around for more than 200 years, there are still many
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Friday, March 16, 2018

Non-instrumental Cover of a Very Bengali Song!

'Ami Banglay Gaan Gai' is a song written by Pratul Mukhopadhyay (one of those extremely beautiful singer-songwriter-composers who lost their heads after 2009 and gave in to the right-wing exacerbation that has conglomerated into the near future situation in the polity of West Bengal ever since then. The other people on this list would include Kabir Suman, Mahasweta Devi among others.) Coming back to the song, 'Ami Banglay Gaan Gai' literally means 'I sing in Bengali' and is an extremely touching song that remarks the beauty, serenity and power that lasts in the heart of a language. 



I actually uploaded it on my personal Facebook page on 21st February this year. The complete lyrics of the song has been provided in the description box itself (and in case you want me to do it, I could very well do a translation job any day.) Beginning from the bright, young men to the old and wise professors, to the landless labourer - the International Mother Language Day is a tribute to all the living struggles against the imperialistic domination of the linguistic and social culture of one's homeland. 
To this very day, the struggle against the perils of capitalism in every stratum must go on.

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Friday, March 9, 2018

Currently on My Playlist : 'Promise' by Ben Howard

The very first of the warmly chaotic spring breezes have been blowing here in the top half of the Indian subcontinent. And once when you have made your mind (or not) to relax a bit at midnight, facing away from textbooks and the ongoing crisis of fascism (I still was born in a pretty privileged background, which allows me to indulge into pure art sometimes - even now...no denial.), who wouldn't feel like garnering some light into your system - through or not through your corneal elegies? 
With the onset of spring comes Rilke, comes Bach's lonely violin in accordion to the sadistic moonlight that drives down straight from your throat to the invisible umbilical cord of the bygone ages. Surprisingly, with all these classic fragrances and their aura, Ben Howard's 'Promise' doesn't fail to impress. 


(Photograph Source: Genius)

Lyrics 

And meet me there, bundles of flowers
We wait through the hours of cold
Winter shall howl at the walls
Tearing down doors of time
Shelter as we go

And promise me this
You'll wait for me only
Scared of the lonely arms
Surface, far below these birds
And maybe, just maybe I'll come home

Who am I, darling to you?
Who am I?
Going to tell you stories of mine
Who am I?

Who am I, darling for you?
Who am I?
Could be a burden in time, lonely
Who am I, to you?

Who am I, darling for you?
Who am I?
Going to be a burden

Who am I, darling to you?
Who am I?
I come alone here
I come alone here

'Promise' is the 10th and last track on Howard's debut studio album 'Every Kingdom'. Since I find myself a better interpreter than anything else, lyrics usually matter to me far more than anything else when talking about a 'song'. I haven't yet had the chance of listening to every song present on the album but out of the few that I have managed to listen to, Howard passes the true poet test in a go. 
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On The Onset of the Journey from Leningrad to Kurseong : Why The Fight Must Go On

The state election result of Tripura has left us bewildered in shock, leaving us to only question the very planks of Bourgeoisie democracy in India. The corollary could be that not only is the system wildly dysfunctional, but the very attempt of conduction of an "honest referendum" is not possible in any part of the world, given the way capitalism tends to function. 
This reminds me of yet another tragedy that shook the world in the mid-twentieth century, the collaborative conglomeration of three fascist regimes that were more or less formed in Central Europe - first in Italy, then in Germany and lastly in Spain. The only difference visible to the naked eye would be that there is a beautiful, glossy veil to apparently curb the intensity of the chronology of incidents that are going to take place in the nearest future. 
We are stuck amidst a situation in which it would be quite right to suggest that it is perplexing to predict the absolute series of events that will eventually lead to the birth of the political health of the Indian subcontinent, and the rest of Asia - especially the Southern and Middle-eastern regions. 



Lorca prior to execution


Coming to what we had begun from - Leningrad is too cliche for a part of the academic elite, and even more for a part of the pretentious elite who can live off an entire lifetime succumbing slowly to namedropping and dismantling paranoia of a cancerous disease that is often termed illusion to the comparatively logical sections of the society. (The university I am currently pursuing my degree in Economics from is a glorious example of the context mentioned.) In the long run, your thought processing mechanism is bound to be maligned by creatures of both kinds - so-called radical extremist leftists, and so-called 'independents'/anarchists/nothingness poured into a lonely body and free mind/etcetera/etcetera. 



Shambunath Raigar, who was filmed burning a Muslim man alive.
(Source: India Today)

 Neither does breaking off the statue of Shyamaprasad Mukherjee in response to RSS's consistent attacks on Lenin's statues in Tripura, followed by the attack on Ambedkar's statue in Uttar Pradesh and Periyar Ramaswami's statue in Tamil Nadu signify any form of constructive resistance, nor does it affect the common man's gesture in everyday life. Gandhi's path might not be the right one, not even close to the right one - but a bunch of man-children rushing to break off statues across the 'nation' is nothing but tomfoolery in times like this. The reason that we are failing, consistently and constantly failing to actually put up some serious form of resistance, sow the seeds of active conscious into the minds of people surely does have links to how capital has learnt to hide itself within your shirt pocket to the question of sexual pleasure and randomness in the pattern of insomnia. But what we often forget is that the reason is not just capital, or just feudalism, or the justification of any of their respective presence in the history of our civilization. The reason, is also that we are playing the same role in reciprocating the kind of manhandling we are subject to in our daily lives, in every sphere - and especially the political strata concerned. 
The north-eastern part of India, including the northern part of West Bengal, has sublimely suppressed the demand for Gorkhaland. If you carefully observe, you would still notice the frugal ignorance that we subject the crisis to. That it always is an add-on, an 'extra' in the little space of debate we exist in itself is enough incentive to exclude an eminently important part of what should have been of immediate concern. 
There is another problem with the philosopical justification of 'nothingness'. First of all, there is no nothingness that has nothing to do with escape. An escape from the situation you are forced to be captured and tortured by your bipolarity might be painful, but the solution to that cannot be swinging a pendulum in mid-air. If you have to do something, do it. If you have to stand up when you want to stand up despite all other conditions holding you back, stand up and speak. This part of your conscious, no matter how many times have been marred by Stalinists, Gandhians, the upper class elite, radicals who would suggest theory has been dead (and others) have not bathed in the blood of the epic list of dead poets, musicians, authors, journalists and even academicians and bloggers the world over. Theory is important, but not the end of the world. If you end up smoking weed and painting absolutely breathtaking material while doing nothing about what time demands from you, you, unfortunately, are not a part of what struggle constitutes, and what in turn constitutes struggle. 



(Source : Live Law)


The partisan movement might not be the ultimate answer and a means of preference for several people who want to have a say about the situation without giving in to the steady hypnotism an EVM could create. But what must not be forgotten is the crisis that could be created regarding the EVM as well, what must not be forgotten is that as long as the bourgeoisie democracy is existent, the fight has to go on, be it inside the parliament or outside on the streets. You do not necessarily even have to be a part of the liberal democratic left in order to have a stand, but you must have a stand. You must know that students struggling against ABVP, RSS, BJP and the rest of the Sanghis, or the Mujahideen or the radical Zionists are protestors above any creed or colour. You must know that Gramsci failed in unification, the pain of failure floods every page of 'The Prison Notebooks', but you must know that 'The Prison Notebooks' were written. You must know, that Julius Fuchik voiced himself until death. You must know Bhagat Singh's last wish was to go through the 'Das Kapital', you must know RSS played a lead role in sustaining the British Raj and they ain't no nationalists. You must know that you must know that you are not being able to know. You must know that the struggle is a culmination of the struggle for knowledge, for freedom, for unity against the fascists. You must know Salvador Allende and you must know that Joan Jara continued to author the legacy of Victor Jara, the details of the torture, the intricate terror of what led to his death. You must know, Moloyshree Hashmi went on to complete the staging of 'Halla Bol' two days after the death of Safdar. You must know, Afrazul was killed because he was a Muslim, because he was a poor, landless labourer, because he loved a Hindu woman. You must know, that he was hacked to death and his body was lit in front of a camera so that the country would be terrorised.You must recognise the fascists, you must know that in times of war, you need to take a side.
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Saturday, March 3, 2018

10 Historic Places You Should See in Florida : Guest Post by Sandra Hayward

Hello everyone! 

It has been quite a while that we haven't interacted at all and I am apologetic about being really busy about upcoming exams and furnishing my new hide! Amidst all of these, I received an 
e-mail from Sandra, along with this wonderful article that enlists 10 places that you should definitely see in Florida. Keep scrolling to find out what this intriguing woman has to say about one of the vertices of the Bermuda triangle. (Florida is one such place I would love to visit sometime in my life and at least be the witness to a tornado and violent sea waves.)


Researchers at the Florida Institute of Technology have recorded a rare type of lightning. 'Upwards lightning'


So,here goes the piece. 

10 Historic Places You Should See in Florida

The cold season is warming up to a much-awaited end, and we are all looking forward to visiting new locations. Although there are a ton of interesting sites in many nations that qualify for sightseeing, today we would like to point out some awesome places in the state of Florida, USA.
The southeastern state Florida serves as a spot to a host of prestigious institutions, relaxation parks, water fonts as well as notable landmarks. Boasting a tropical-like weather range and bounded by Mexican Gulf to the west, Florida takes eighth place in USA when it comes to density of population. Miami, one of the cities located in this state is a hotspot for celebrities, athletes and popular personalities who often show up to spend a holiday next to the beautiful landmarks.
Without a doubt, there’re quite many side places to visit in Florida. We’ve picked out a popular few for your choice selection.
In no specific order, we bring you a list of 10 historical sites to visit in Florida:

1. Bok Tower Gardens

Founded in the early 20th century by an immigrant from the Netherlands, this landscape beauty remains one of the best places to visit in Florida, USA. Famous for its singing Tower, its unique flower blooms and breathtaking view of sunsets. A latter is due to its location beside the Iron Mountain, one of the highest points in the state. It’s also a favorite spot for both social and formal events.

2. Dade Battlefield Historic State Park

When deciding what to visit in Florida, this site should be included in the top of your list. Asides being known for its captivating wildlife, this was also where well-known Florida War took place, starting in 1835 and spanning seven years.

3. Ernest Hemingway home/museum

Remember an author of popular novel, “The Old Man and The Sea”? Hemingway’s home, where he lived till his death can also be found in the sunshine state. It’s also said that house furniture was used by the prominent author.

4. Freedom Tower

When visiting Florida, one must not forget to pay homage to the Freedom Tower. Originally opened in 1925, this building was first used by a media house, then played an important role in housing Cuban refugees during the Cold war. Till date, it stands tall as a symbol of hope and strength. It also represents a turning point in history for many Cubans who found assistance within its walls.
 




5. Villa Vizcaya

Another great architectural piece to see while touring the state is Villa Vizcaya. It was once home to J. Deering, a prominent antique collector and executive. It now serves as a museum, displaying over 30 decorated rooms. A perfect sightseeing tour to complete your stay in Miami.

6. Pelican Island

Opened in 1903 by the then-president, T. Roosevelt, Pelican Island has also featured as one of the best places in Florida. It is also recognized as the world’s most populous wildlife sanctuary with a sprawling fauna diversity both on land and water. Visitors also get to go kayaking as they explore the peculiar settings of the place. 
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Sunday, February 25, 2018

To All Those Who Are Suffering from COPD,You Are Much More Than You Believe You Are

To all people out there suffering from Chronic Obstructive Pulmonary Disorder, emphysema, chronic bronchitis, acute asthma and the like, there is one thing you need to keep in mind - the lesser you do, the lesser you will be able to do. Now, this is not an emotional appeal at all. This is something that you need to strongly know. There are three things doctors/people reliant on the mainstream way of dealing with a disease would not tell you:-

First, you're not dead. Yet. True that it might have to deal with life expectancy, true that by 2020 COPD is set to be the third highest cause of death but I swear by, you ain't gonna die this easy, darling.

Second, you're not a drug dependent, psychotic, poor little creature. You can do what you used to do, even set out to be a hard metal singer or maybe a drummer or formula one racer. You might have to work harder than usual, especially on the psychological imbalance that formulates due to the constant shortness of breath and the anxiety of not being able to let enough air flow into your lungs.


( Fishermen at Sea by J.M.W Turner, 1796 ; Photograph Source : Wikimedia)

Third, you're not "weaker than the rest". True that Karl Marx saved himself from conscription into the army because of "a weak chest condition" but that was something really bright, right? Coming to what we want to talk about, no - you're absolutely not weak. Not weak, at the least. If you are living with something as serious and you're walking, you're serving your purpose - out there in the Sun, you're not weak. In fact, you might just be strong enough to survive with something that affects your life 24x7, every moment, every figment of your thought processing skills.

Moving on, let me tell you what happened with me. I was not diagnosed with anything early on as a kid, but I have memories of nebulisations performed on my tiny little lungs as early as when I was four or five years old. I was also very sensitive as a child (that shows right? :P ) and would never ignore what was happening around me. As a result, I was restless and fervently maniacal to be honest. 
When I was in my 8th grade, things started getting worse than usual. As I attained my puberty, I noticed the frequency of breathlessness during suffering from a cold was increasing. I was ignorant about it for almost four and a half years until a few months back I began showing symptoms of brutal fatigue. Hereditarily, I have a slightly low blood pressure but what was happening was pretty intense to be just low bp. I was loosing consciousness quite often, I would feel breathless after being extremely anxious for periods as small as 10-15 minutes, I would be very tired after work et cetera. I went on ignoring all of what was happening. In the middle, I was misdiagnosed with gall -stone when what I really was suffering from was Pelvic Inflammatory Disease (PID). Just when I began recovering, I noticed I was suffering a chronic low fever, wheezing, excessive mucus secretions. This went on until the symptoms turned to what was similar to asthma attacks, something I had experienced during winter months before. Angry friends and acquaintances in the university forcibly sent me for check-ups and that led to the ultimate conclusion that I was suffering from COPD. I nearly passed out trying to blow air during my spirometry. (The technician guy was an absolute idiot, nevermind.) I tried fighting it, I am still fighting it, but what is very very important is that I had broken down psychologically and if the world didn't,I did know that very well. I was prescribed Amitriptyline Hydrochloride in the initial stage, which is a multifaceted drug used to treat a chronic cough but is also, at the same time, a tri-cyclic anti-depressant which is terrible. Tranquilizers in the initial stages of consumption, steer suicidal thoughts, along with a bunch of other dystopian ideas. Antibiotics turn out to be a routine prescription, you need to use Salbutamol in either liquid or gaseous forms, which will inevitably make you dizzy. Under life-threatening conditions, Steroid is prescribed. I had to be rushed to a hospital one night and I was injected Steroid and nebulised Asthalin. I hardly have memories of the day next. All that I remember is that the rooms were dancing and the walls were breaking down into weird fragments. It was Lucy-in-the-sky-with-figments-of-my-mind-but-then-hey-where-is-Jude-don't-make-it-bad-take-a-sad-song-did-did-did-you-ever-wonder-why-we-had-to-run-for-shelter-when-the-promise-of-a-brave-new-world-on-the-day-the-walls-came-down and the like. It was bad, it was terrible. 
When people ask me "Why do you live alone?", the answer usually is "Because I believe, before everything else, I am an artist. And this pain is mine. And this pain will last." Almost everyone went against the idea of me living alone, with a life-threatening condition. Almost everyone wanted to take me under their wing. But poor Lord, how I used to love the lonely sky! 
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